In Memory of My Beautiful Mother,Lucille Marie MorroneJanuary 28, 1919-May 3, 2014

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	  Prologue
Chapter One 					    
The HospitalThe First VisionThe Second Vision
Chapter Two

Seventeen
The JournalThe Coach and the Player The Chess TournamentThe Powerful Impression
Chapter Three
The RoomThe Equation of ThoughtThe Lava and the Smoke
The LizardThe Blame for ThoughtsThe Blame for FeelingsGood FeelingsTypes of Thought1-4 ThoughtTopsoil Types of PicturesA New Door is openedWritingEclectic KnowledgeChristian Principals and PTSD
Chapter Four
Correct ThinkingCreating Pictures The Chain of ThoughtI was aware of the lizardIt’s 1977 and THIS IS BORING!The Metal WeightThe Controlled AngerThe ShovelGiving advice and “you”Physical ThoughtMemoryThe View of the Mountain
The Diagram of Thought SegmentsPositive AffirmationsFaithThe Concept of the SphereThe Call to Action

   Chapter Five        				San Jose State UniversityThe Mental ExplosionThe Diagram of the TestThe Diagram of the SphereThe Diagram of The Equation of ThoughtThe Part of Me I Always HatedThe Existential Idea1+ 2 = 4The DeskThe Shores of my lifeLuke 6:27 to 6:49
All Bible quotes are from the confraternity edition of the Bible.

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The following excerpts from chapter two are from a story I wrote during adolesence...the mental references were a description of my inner thoughts...Sometimes it feels like life hits us with a series of meteors, and we feel the need to believe in something beyond the senses and modern technology...But sometimes we replace belief in God with belief in the material world... 
Oct. 12, 1975
 
     ”Revenge I shall not take. Take your evil ways, you regretful people! Revenge? No! Revenge they take care themselves—upon themselves. Destroy themselves they do—with the very crawling of their bug like thoughts. Take my limbs, my body? Those creatures, those ghostly creatures! I’m made to think thoughts that aren’t my own, follow orders I do not choose! I have become physically what they are mentally!”
     The spacecraft zoomed steadily for Mars, ever-consuming time, and actions of the world. It was catapulted into the outer distances in summation of the greatest technical advances of earth—yet now it was alone—left under the soul guidance of the stolen brain—the brain that was ripped from the murdered genius’s skull, and placed at the center of the ship to save the world. 
      “Why did you do this to me?” the brain asked John. “Why did you make me a depiction of your consciousness?”
     John sat in the corner of his room with his hands over his head. An evil body lived inside his skull. It sat in him, thinking thoughts that were not his. John couldn’t control the thoughts, and the more he tried, the more tenacious they became. The feelings followed wherever he went, never giving, always taking, they appeared to be matter, not thought. He thought about getting a knife, sinking it into his head, and cutting the evil body out…

     …A giant molten rock approached the ship. It whizzed by. Another appeared, and did the same. Another and another molten rock approached, until a great storm of molten rock threatened to destroy the ship.      “Oh, how thoughts materialize,” thought the brain. “Enslaved minds are the reason for mankind’s troubles!”
      …“The governments of the world are a depiction of consciousness,” reasoned the brain. “Dangerous forces are gathering like dark storm clouds upon the future. Unless the governments band together in unprecedented cooperation, civilization will collapse from the weight of technology.”
     …The mission to Mars failed. At the request of God, Jesus Christ gave mankind one last chance. There would be a battle between good and evil, and the battle would take place inside the mind of a human being! If the individual won the battle against evil, God would rule the world. If the individual lost the battle against evil, God would flee the world, and the weight of Satan would collapse civilization.
… Although barely audible in a world of loud and violent noises, this truth could be heard by placing one’s ear gently upon one’s soul. 

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Unwise priorities have combined with sophisticated technologies and hatred to  imperile the world!  Edit TextFrom Chapter Three...  What is God’s Message?
 
     With every technological advance we move closer to each other. The other side of the world is no longer the other side of the world. What happens over there truly impacts what happens over here.  Nations stockpiling weapons like candy stored in a cupboard will lead to disaster. The world is getting too dangerous, and unless something changes, there will be an unimaginable catastrophe.
     We are not only citizens of a country, but more importantly, citizens of a world. We are one people. There is no conflict in the world more difficult to overcome than a conflict in the mind. I overcame the emotional scars to prove we can make the necessary changes to avoid cataclysmic war. We can cure ourselves. We can live as one and in harmony. People of all nations can raise their children without fear of war. It may seem impossible, but we must believe, for without this success, there may no longer be humankind. I once wrote, “The winner of the battle of the minds is the one who overcomes both the inner and the outer worlds.” And now I say the world must win the outer conflicts by resolving the inner. We must be wise. Dig down deep inside as if your life depends on it. Think hard! Study. Contemplate. It will be very difficult, maybe the most difficult thing we’ve ever achieved, but it must be done. We’re a 1st century people with 21st century technology. Pray we don’t destroy the world.
     What will you put your faith in, the military of benign nations, or the thoughts of Christ? I believe the thoughts of Christ will create world peace long before military action. True, we need a miracle, but that is why God created the miracle inside my mind. Yes, this is idealistic, but with God, all things are possible. Who else, but God, can save us from ourselves?
 
The Mission
 
    Can all the problems of this world be solved by resolving inner problems? Probably not, but improving yourself can only help, because you’re a part of the world. The better you are, the better the world will be. There will be people who are possessed by power—these people probably can’t be reached. Then, what do we do? This isn’t an easy answer. I’d say we must rely on the power of God. Good things are going to happen. The will of God is behind us! That is for certain! We will find great luck!
     There are those who follow the words of Satan in Holy Books, for them, their hatred is their Benedict Arnold. These people will self-destruct. We must follow our higher morals, and in doing so, we will give them no room but to fall. YOUR HATRED WILL DESTROY YOU.    
     The future war won’t be won on the battlefield, but in the hearts and minds of the people. The value and dignity of human life must be respected entirely, fully, and without compromise. A life on the other side of the planet must be respected the same as a life next door. This philosophy of respect for human life is probably inconvenient for many, but if the world is to live in peace, we must change our behavior. Hatred breads hatred, and killing breads killing. I’d say if military action is necessary, it should be small, local, precise action. It may seem unrealistic to assume this can be done, but what is the alternative?
     People can tell the future in a limited way. We know when the sun will rise, and when the moon will be crescent. We see heavenly bodies blast through the universe, and know where they’ll be in twenty years. We can tell the future given a simple model. Someday, humankind will discover a comet streaking across the universe, and calculate that it will, in time, strike the earth. When this happens, what will we do? Will we stand back and allow it to destroy life on earth?  No, we’ll gather our best minds, and devise a plan to change the path of the huge body. We’ll send up a spacecraft or missile to change the comets trajectory. God has a greater ability to know the future than we do. Because of his perfect knowledge, he has the ability to calculate variables, and know what will happen in the course of human events. GOD SEES GREAT DANGER IN THE CURRECT TRAVEL PATH OF WORLD EVENTS. THIS BOOK IS ABOUT CHANGING THE TRAVEL PATH OF THE POLITCAL WORLD TO AVOID CATACLISMIC COLLISION. IT IS DANGEROUS NOT TO CHANGE BEHAVIOUR. IT IS DANGEROUS NOT TO RESPECT LIFE. DON’T THINK IT IS INCONVENIENT TO MAKE BIG CHANGES IN POLICIES TO PREVENT DEATH IN WAR. THE ALTERNATIVE IS AN UNIMAGINABLE CATASTOPHY.
 
Terrorism
 
     Do you think Lucifer knows there is a God of the universe? Of course he does!  Lucifer was one of God’s angels. Knowing there is a Supreme Being is not a guarantee of good judgment. Don’t you think that Lucifer has read the scripture? Of course he has.  Belief in God and studying scripture isn’t a guarantee of wisdom. Don’t trust preachers who say they believe in scripture, therefore, they have the correct political opinion. Lucifer grew arrogant, just like these people, and the result was catastrophic.  The scripture allows humility, caring, and love. If you don’t here this, identify the person as a dangerously confused individual.
     As stated in chapter two under the heading, “The Chess Tournament,” in the fourth grade, I wrote a poem about the interpretation of the Bible. I wrote that which “god” is worshipped depends on the interpretation of the Bible. I wrote that people read the same Bible, but worship different gods. And now I say that some people choose to interpret the Bible in a hateful way; they quote scriptures that support predetermined biases against fellow citizens of the earth, therefore, don’t worship Christ, but worship Lucifer. The Bible is not the only Holy Book to be abused in this way. The words of Holy Books are abused throughout the world, to the extent that Satan himself uses these books for evil.  It’s almost like Satan’s words are in Holy Books.  I touched upon this in chapter two, under the Aug. 2, 1977 journal entry. And so I write the following:
     To those who worship Satan’s words in Holy Books, and use his words as justification to murder people: God is very distressed about this behavior. Special angels are awaiting the souls of the murderers to escort them to a low place. There, they will await the harsh judgment of God. Additionally, the father and mother of these people will also be judged for the acts of their children. The angels will also escort the souls of the parents to this low place. There, the parents can plead their case to God. Their actions will be looked at closely, and no mercy will be shown to the guilty.
     To the demonic leaders who teach hatred to the murderers: The special angels will escort your soul to a different place, even lower than the murderers. It is there that you will await God’s judgment.
     THIS IS GOD’S WAR, AND GOD WILL WIN ON HIS TERMS.
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My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.1In Memory of My Beautiful Mother,Lucille Marie MorroneJanuary 28, 1919-May 3, 2014My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.2Copyright 2021 by Apex Business Services, Inc. Printed in the United StatesAll rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without permission from the publisher, except for the inclusion of brief quotations in a review. Apex PublishingP.O. Box 5445San Jose, Ca. 95150ISBN 978-0-9744603-1-410 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.3able of Contents  Prologue Chapter One  The HospitalThe First VisionThe Second Vision Chapter Two SeventeenThe Journal The Coach and the Player The Chess Tournament The Powerful Impression Chapter Three The Room The Equation of ThoughtThe Lava and the SmokeThe LizardThe Blame for ThoughtsThe Blame for FeelingsGood FeelingsTypes of Thought1-4 ThoughtTopsoil Types of PicturesA New Door is openedMy Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.4WritingEclectic KnowledgeChristian Principals and PTSD Chapter FourCorrect ThinkingCreating Pictures The Chain of ThoughtI was aware of the lizardIt’s 1977 and THIS IS BORING!The Metal WeightThe Controlled AngerThe ShovelGiving advice and “you”Physical ThoughtMemoryThe View of the MountainThe Diagram of Thought SegmentsPositive AffirmationsFaithThe Concept of the SphereThe Call to Action Chapter Five San Jose State UniversityThe Mental ExplosionThe Diagram of the TestThe Diagram of the SphereThe Diagram of The Equation of ThoughtThe Part of Me I Always HatedThe Existential Idea1+ 2 = 4My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.5 The DeskThe Shores of my lifeLuke 6:27 to 6:49All Bible quotes are from the confraternity edition of the Bible. My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.6Prologue“…I see Christ.” The age of two taught me three things I could never forget. The first is that loneliness can cause physical pain; the second is that being with the wrong people can be worse than being alone; the third is that a terrible experience can uncover who you are, and you can learn to love the emotional scars. I learned this lesson because in the early 1960’s, at the age of two, I was hospitalized with encephalitis, left alone for several days, and traumatized by a medical test. After the terrifying medical test, I had a vision of Christ. He stood above my head and talked to me. He said thatsomething special was going to happen inside my mind. When I returned home, I suffered from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, and only God knew it. Throughout childhood, the traumatic memories festered, and as an adolescent, in 1975, the terrifying medical experiences caused feelings from the hospital to explode inside my mind. The emotions tormented me day and night. It was as if at the age of seventeen, I was once again two years old, experiencing the terror of the hospital, except this time I could never leave. I Wrote: “…I GUESS IT’S MY FAULT. But it hurts. I’m trying to feel better, but it doesn’t work. It’s almost like God wants me to suffer. It’s like God wants the thorns of my life to come up and poke me. So they’ll hurt more. So I will bleed. So my wounds will become infected and gangrene will set in. So I will hurt—I have hurt. I have hurt to the deepest soul.” However, as the emotions emerged, the influence of Christ followed. I wrote: “It’s possible something else besides me is thinking…I’m getting strength from somewhere…” The images of Christ sat inside my mind, and for God’s glory, I fulfilled his prophecy. I looked upon the drapes in my room, and wrote, “I see Christ.” But still, “…I remained alone like the charred remnant of a destroyed world…” And concerning the hospital, “…The memory of the test vibrated like noise blasting my ears…”L.A. Morrone, 2021My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.7Chapter OneChapter one describes the genesis of the adolescent crucible and how I got into the mess of having mental demons inside me. I describe experiences that got stuck in my head, changed all others, and dictated how the simplest of things would be seen for my entire life. I describe thoughts that became forgotten, yet remained present; thoughts that were unseen, yet relevant;thoughts that were over-looked, yet of utmost importance; like the circuitry of a machine, these thoughts became components of my mind, part of a cruel and grotesque anatomy that infested every moment of my life. The Hospital echoed in my mind, but the memory of Christ sifted out slowly, like the sand of an hourglass. I wrote, “He supported my thoughts, my mind, like a tree stake, he held my up, as if I was strong.” This book details the several years I fought the demons. “I was empowered, bolstered; his thoughts were in my head. He breathed pure reason into the veins of my consciousness.” I didn’t get counseling or help from any human being. I took no medicine or drugs. I only got help from Christ. I wrote, “Christ’s words fell like a soft, consistent rain; gentle, yet powerful, like the waves of a tranquil sea; I felt his power.” In 1975 I was on a long bike ride with the Hoover-Lincoln Bike Club, a group of High School students. On the last day of the 2500-mile bike trip I dreaded coming home because somehow I knew that the path of my life included facing a dreadful challenge. I wasn’t just coming home, but was returning to face my problems. As we approached the Santa Clara Valley, we stopped for lunch at a park in Fremont. It was July 30, 1975. I wrote: “12:18 P.M. A cloud of wonder over my head? No, only home. I can see the brownish, grayish smog in the sky. It clusters over San Jose, only 17 miles away.“ After riding a bicycle 2500 miles, through British Columbia Canada,Washington, and Oregon, and down through Northern California, at the age My Testimony of The Eclectic Knowledge of Christ.8of 17, it came to this. I saw the smog of the city 17 miles away, and sensed the demons over the 17 years of my life. I couldn’t hide behind the bike ride anymore. All that was left was the demons clustering over my head like the brownish, grayish smog hovering over my home. I wrote of myself: