What if you
were traumatized as a child and as an adolescent, forgot? Well, just look around at all the people who are trying to find
themselves. Are you one of them? Well, it happened to me, and at the age of seventeen I figured out how to overcome it! I
suffered from a horrible mental illness and figured out how to overcome it. Don't you think you can learn by studying my thoughts?
Keep reading to become one of those in the (k)now!
Pictures popped up in my head...
“When the fire comes the pictures in my mind are disarrayed, foggy, confused, mixed up, and controlled by feelings of
insecurity. Now, it’s simple. Once a picture is present in the mind, it has power! It takes more than just thoughts
to get rid of the picture. If you’ve got an unfavorable picture in your mind, but want to think good thoughts, you can’t.
You’ve got to change the picture….”
-- From my journal, July
me to begin what I did at the age of seventeen? It
was psychological demons that took the shape of a fiery ball on my forehead. The demons were the result of years of denying
an unspeakable hospital experience at the age of two.
The fiery ball felt physical
and I contemplated getting a knife and cutting it out of my forehead. The pain was growing too intense to bare, and cutting
it out was becoming an acceptable possibility.
As months passed,
it became difficult to relate to people because sometimes when I thought about them or looked at them, the pain intensified.
It was depressing because I couldn't control what thoughts would trigger the painful feelings. It was embarrassing to talk
about so I never discussed it, and was afraid of being made fun of. My situation seemed hopeless!
Luckily, I instinctively began to think
that the pain was my thoughts, therefore, my thoughts, other thoughts, could overcome them. I devised lots of theories
concerning which thoughts in my head, of which there was an assortment of them, would do the trick. So little by little, inch
by inch, I made strides to improve, until about three years later, I had it figured out and overcame it. After overcoming the emotional problems, I figured, Gee...
problems of the world can be resolved by overcoming the demons in the mind..."
Think about it. What world problem can't be resolved by overcoming inner demons? When
I was battling the demons, I began to have memories—flashbacks—of another lifetime. Now who knows if they were true or not, but these flashbacks really made me think. These
flashbacks are described on this website in chapter one. Also, I found the above picture in the clouds, which seems to show
a sarcophagus with a child coming out of it, and a number two on its chest. The child has something on its head, almost like
a demon. There is an upside down pyramid above my right eye, which is the Christian symbol for concept that the greatest among
us shall be the servant of us all. The triangular shape of the pyramid forms the face of a man. There is the image of someone
to the right above my head.
The picture seems to be linked to these memories, but if you can’t see what I see in it, no big deal, it’s just an old picture
scanned and copied...Besides, did anyone but Michael Angelo see the Statue of David until he removed the stone to uncover
it? Does anyone see the great potential inside you, although you're capable of so much, but don't always show it?
There is plenty
that isn't seen, yet there! To see potential previously unnoticed and solutions previously unseen, look again
at yourself, and learn how to overcome emotions and thoughts; and if you're feeling down in the dumps, learn how I identified
the mental pictures lodged inside my mind, and figured out how to defeat them!
The vision of Christ.
The vision of Christ was stuck in my head along with the
hospital trauma. The vision instilled in me the crazy idea that if I could overcome powerful emotional scars, I'd be better
off for it, and more importantly, so would you.
The Trauma and the Vision of Christ
While sick with encephalitis, an inflammation of the brain, I was left alone in the
hospital and the doctors kept me awake during a terrifying medical test. You need to understand that the terror was magnified because of my
age. If I was a one year old, perhaps
I wouldn’t have understood enough to be scared. If I was more than TWO YEARS OLD, perhaps I would have known enough
not to be scared. But I was only TWO YEARS OLD, caught in the middle, and therefore my feelings were exacerbated.
It was then, after I had felt like the world was lost and then gained, after a lifetime of feelings were condensed into a
few horrific moments; it was then, at the age of two, that Christ came to me; and it was then, at this penetrating time of
searing trauma, when emotions rose and fell like huge, ancient mountains, that Christ looked into me, and willed with his
powerful thoughts that I overcome the crisis, and prevail over the emotional scars.
The trauma from the medical examination incubated
for fifteen years inside my mind, like an old curse, and at the age of seventeen, I struggled against a horrible mental torment
and was terrorized by my thoughts. It was then that Christ's influence emerged within my consciousness.
A Cosmic Alarm Has Sounded!
Mankind has developed sophisticated technologies, but failed to overcome incorrect, primitive thoughts and feelings. The combination of hatred, globalization, and advanced technologies
has put millions of lives at risk. The struggle for enlightenment has been replaced by greed, materialism, ego,
and political correctness. Spiritual ideas have been misinterpreted, and thoughts and feelings have veered
toward radical extremism and vengeance. There are rogue states and killings in the name of God! The governments
of the world are at a loss about what to do, impotently acting with fruitless results, and all the while, the very existence
of civilization as we know it is threatened.
From the FEMA website:
Throughout human history, there have
been many threats to the security of nations. These threats have brought about large-scale losses of life, the destruction
of property, widespread illness and injury, the displacement of large numbers of people, and devastating economic loss.
Recent technological advances and ongoing international unrest are components
of the increased risk to national security.
CHAPTER TWO SHORT VERSION
How I figured out how to remember my birth
MESSAGE TO THE MUSLIMS